到底出了什么問題

剛拋下了一段情，
不舍是一定有的，
但，到最后自己還是要面對，
去選擇，最終，自己到底要什么。

那，沒了兒女私情，
朋友，當然是扮演重要的角色···
但是，往往都會出現反常的效果。

對朋友好，
有些會領會得到，你對他們的付出；
有些則是對你不理不睬，麻木的感覺。

扮演朋友的你，真的會這樣嗎？

2009, here i come...

love & career, can it be balance?

i don't know the answer right now... feeling confusing & hurt.

well, although i feel good with my career in 2008, my new year's resolution for 2009, will focus more on being health conscious and enjoying the "quiet times" life offers, sometimes be alone is also beautiful as in calm my mind to think further, and be more productive after all.

end of 2008

hm, it's de last day of de year again...
when is my "melancholia" will be go away from me...
it's terrible though...
...just wanna get rid of it...
...my feeling
...my hope
...my dreams...

dare not to think about it from now on...
just try to do my very best on my career,
and wish everyone of my friends, my family,
happy new year and dreams come true (if y'all have it...)

很快吶

很快的，
今年將快過完了，
呵呵，不知不覺又再老啦。。。

嗯，認真地想一想，
到底還有什麼事情，
必須在今年里完成的。。。

呵～ ^__^

"hey dear"

剛讀過了關穎的部落格，
里面寫了這一篇，
看了都會“休克”幾秒鐘（夸張式）的文章。
她，只是用了簡單的英語，
但，表達的，卻是如此心碎，更是心亂如麻。
here we go. . .

× × × × ×

hey dear

in this cold weather, I’m standing right here
trying to remember, when you smile at me and whisper
we were always there for each other
never mind being a giver
it’s been a long time looking into your eyes so near
but you are not thinking further
just asking me to wait here

I can tell that you are not a liar
so don’t tell me that you don’t care
why bother, who’s the winner
have you ever wonder,
how we become such strangers
maybe you thought I had never bother
or you are just so careless

everyday seems familiar
but nothing seems similar
can you see my fear
can you feel my anger
what I need is just an angel
cry on your shoulder

hide in the corner
eyes fill with tears
close my ears
so weak don’t want to hear
things I can’t bear
unless you want me to disappear
"...don't ask any further..."
this is all I heard in these years

trying to put myself together
not feeling any better
taking every step slower
don’t want to see things so clear
wishing for more power
need more time to recover
become stronger
my life would be happier

life is bitter
loving will be harder
it won’t be the same no longer
I swear
can’t be this way anymore
keep on waiting forever
the time is our witness

going nowhere, right after
if once again you get closer
please don’t put anyone into danger
crossing my fingers
pray for anyone that is your lover
till the end anything could be occured

× × × × ×

be a lone ranger
stay besides my father & mother
you could think it is cruel
but, you never thought, I'm getting older